Afraid to enter in 2025
Why Time Feels like It’s Slipping Away
Standing on the eve of 2025, I feel deep within me a great fear. There is this growing feeling of anxiety as I realize that the years go by like those on an acceleration machine while my life does not seem to become better—it seems to go spirally in the opposite direction instead. It feels like time has become a current that one cannot control, and from day to day, I see myself drifting further from life.
The Silent Passing of Time
For I don't know exactly when, but one day life was a hope of growth and opportunity and endless possibility. Somewhere along the line, that hope turned to a quiet terror. Now time blurs and days are lost so that I've almost quit wondering: where did it go? How'd I ever transform looking forward into fearing the future?
It’s as though life is speeding by, and I’m just running on autopilot-one year blurring into the next without me really living. Birthdays pass, and the year-end seems to creep up quicker each year than it would. Crossing over to 2025 is in front of me, but I’m not ready. I don’t want to cross that threshold yet.
Life Isn’t What I Expected
As I age, the blows of reality hit harder. What seemed nearer to being reached by my dreams and…
