The Moment It All Made Sense
“It slowly made sense why no one stayed with me till the end. Look at me, even I don’t want to stay with myself anymore.”
I used to spend so much time blaming others…friends, relationships, people who drifted away. I thought that they were the problem, because they didn’t care enough, or weren’t loyal enough. It was always them, not me.
But the more months passed by, I started to notice something unsettling. The very things that I criticize others for, I’m doing to myself, leaving, not sticking around. There were times in which I hated being alone with my own thoughts and feelings. It felt like I had become a stranger unto myself-that’s somebody I do not want to hang around with. The blame that I once put on others slowly started shifting inward.
Maybe the people were leaving because I hadn’t been there for myself. I was asking other people to stay when I hadn’t learned to stay with my own feelings, flaws, and imperfections. The tables turned, and finally, I understood that before I could expect anyone else to stay, I had to learn how to stay with myself.
