The silent conversation
We value people, they don’t even know.
Disclaimer: I hope no one keeps anything in their hearts especially for the ones they love the most. 🍀
Small misunderstandings can slowly weaken a bond, and a brief moment of anger—whether intentional or not—can unexpectedly bring someone to tears. Sometimes, we’re caught up in so many thoughts that we lose track of our words, our decisions, and our actions, often forgetting what we had planned or decided.
I notice every small act of kindness done for me. If I don’t respond as warmly as expected, it’s not because I don’t feel it. It’s the effect of my derealization, where feeling anything—let alone showing it—becomes challenging. But deep down, I appreciate it; I even feel a quiet happiness inside me. Also that I’m able to feel something at all.
Being close and loving you means your smallest expressions of anger, even the unintentional ones, affect me deeply. To me, they Feel Heavy Even On A Numbed Heart, bringing a quiet ache. I remember every detail of the kind things done for me and could list them all. I may not be great at expressing thanks or showing it in ways that make it obvious, but I do try to give my best.
Caring for you isn’t something I force—it’s something that flows naturally from the heart. My best efforts to care, to show up, are not just attempts; they’re my way of showing how deeply I love and appreciate you. And even if my silence seems confusing, please know that I feel more than words can say.
